Ahhh.....

So, it's been and gone. No more worrying about it for another 300 or so days. What a relief. i'm sat here, it's 11.35pm, alone in the house - well, apart from two fur people that is. Why? You may well ask? The honest answer is that my kids have more of a social life than me! J and N have gone to a party, R is with daddy, B is in spain, K, C and L are all having a drink at her house and i'm sat here alone, Billy no mates! I could've gone to Ks house but my next door neighbours're having a party which would cause my dogs to make a terrible noise if i went out.

To be honest it's quite nice. Everyone seemed happy with their lot, dinner turned out well, even the rotting bird carcass that is intergral to the celebrations apparently. The joys of having adult kids, they know what they want to eat. Usually we get along fine eating my vegan choices but at this time of year i relent and prepare them the meat, it's their holiday too after all. My darling daughter K was thinking on her feet when she did my shopping, she got me a bone free piece of meat that just needed wrapped and slowly cremated so that i didn't have to stick my hand up its bum or anything - now that WOULD be above and beyond the call of duty! - which made the whole process relatively painfree - for me at least, dunno about the poor bird mind, i don't even want to start thinking about that side of things. The plates were piled high with all manner of good things and we all sat together and it was a lovely part of the day - the bonus being that i didn't have to wash up as i'd cooked! Yipee! Did i mention my allergy to domestic duties? No? Well, i did now! Lol!

So, it's the night after xmas, i'm alone and remarkably at peace. The year has had highs and lows, as always but i feel that this year more so than the previous 4 or 5 there have been more highs than lows. Our situation is improving all the time, i'm learning to accept the changes as they happen and am finally allowing myself to realise that the world isn't going to end just because i can't be the bohemian wild child that i used to be anymore (surely i mean woman here? You get my drift tho') and have learned to accept my limitations instead of fighting them. It's a battle i can't win if i look at it in those terms, instead i've started to listen to my body a bit more and look at what i CAN do instead. Whatever the case, all i can do is try my best and see how it goes.

I wasn't planning to get all deep and meaningful tonight, i've got a rare chance to sleep alone (barring the dogs) in my bed and i'm going to take FULL advantage of the duvet hogging opportunities that the current situation allows. I'll get all spiritual and soul searching on you another night instead! Brightest Blessings to you all, and with that i'm off to bed!..........................