Counting my blessings......

I've just had a very sobering experience that made me sit up and realise how very little i have to complain about in my life. I was driving home from dropping R off with daddy for her xmas sleepover. I was feeling quite down, B is away in spain and R not being here overnight was making me feel sorry for myself.

As i drove down the road i saw something that made me realise just how stupid my self pity actually was. Flashing blue lights, police cars, ambulances and two cars, one half the length it should be whilst the other was upside down on the wrong side of the road, personal effects scattered across the road. I don't know who these people are, i know nothing about them. All i can think about is how do you tell someone something like that? They could've been out doing their last gift delivery, almost home for the holidays? Collecting their little ones - or dropping them off - planning a bubbly bath and snuggle before tucking them up excited in bed.

I can't inagine the sadness that these families face, the pain when joy was what was expected. It made me realise how stupid and petty my 'problems' are. So my youngest kids aren't sleeping here tonight, they're safe, well and with people who love them. Instead of going to bed feeling sorry for myself i'm going to have my bath, light a candle and give thanks for the many blessings that i do have. It's just sad that it took someone elses tragedy to make me open up my eyes and give thanks for all the blessings in my life.

Brightest Blessings to you all, wishing you peace, love, health and happiness both now and throughout the whole year too....................

Comments

Lucy said…
hoping you've managed to find some festive joy over this time... I also feel 'incomplete' without the kids when they go away for any length of time... price of being a good parent!!

terrible things to witness... poor souls :(
26 December 2008 at 19:41
Patty said…
I;m reading this late, but wanted to comment. I understand how helpless it makes you feel when you see something like that. It seems that for some reason the holidays are worst when you lose someone. Two years ago early xmas morn (it was just after midnight actually) my husbands brother, wife and four kids were hit head on by a drunk drive. His wife and two of the kids did not survive. I am always thankful when the holidays have past and those I love are safe and sound
I hope you had a great season and your New Year is happy.
29 December 2008 at 05:47
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